At The End of The Day

No matter how cliche the line "No man is an island" is, it never fails to apply to the the fact that each and every human being is in dire need of that person whom they can call theirs and that person who will understand that he or she is imperfect...and that is what makes him or her perfect. Friends and family may always be there to support and love, but we can never deny the fact that we are all in need of that someone...that someone who will truly understand.

For the past 18 years of my life, I have come to realize that I have flaws overflowing throughout my system which makes me feel fortunate enough to still have people standing by my side, despite my very translucent imperfections but I would not deny the fact that I still need someone..

I need someone to understand that I am such a control-freak. I always want things organized and that no matter how ready I am to "go with the flow"... I am in need of a flow to follow. I want to control trips, outings and everything so that things would not go out of hand. I need and want things to be on time, scheduled and followed. l am the type of person who will always.. always want to organize and take care of everyone and everything, so that any type of danger will be avoided.

I need someone to understand that I will always protect my friends, that whatever happens he will have to understand that my friends and I will never be perfect...that we may be loud, wild and crazy at times but that's what makes everything special. I need him to understand that my friends were the ones who knew me at my weakest and appreciated me at may strongest, and that they are a part of the whole package. That falling in love with me means falling in love with the craziness of my friends as well.

I need someone to understand that he will always be second to my family and studies, that before everything else...family will aways be my first priority. He would have to understand that I have big plans for my life, that I want to be successful out there, the world may be crazy but I would and want to make a mark of my own. I am ambitious and determined but that doesn't mean that he would not be a part of my planned future. I need someone who will stay strong for me when I cannot stand on my own feet. I need someone who will accept the fact that I am a grade conscious being who will always find a way to fly despite all the problems existing.

I need someone to understand that behind my "oh-so-happy-and-oh-so-strong-facade" is a girl who will always seek for understanding. I may not have the sweetest words and gestures most of the time, but I need him to know that I care for him. I may appear to be super strong in all circumstances, but I need him to see beyond the facade, to know that beyond my smile is a fragile heart that is in dire need of some healing.

I need someone who will accept myself as a whole..and that includes my crazy friends, my traditional family and my high and big hopes for my future. I need someone who will love me for me..no more, no less, because at the end of the day, among the 7 billion people living in this crazy world, we are really in need of only one who will understand, accept and love us for who we really are.