I don’t know.
What do you want?
“I don’t know”
Who do you like?
“I don’t know.”
What’s your plan?
“I don’t know.”
People say when faced with two choices, simply toss a coin. “It works not because it settles the question
for you but because in that brief moment, when the coin is in the air, you
suddenly know what you are hoping for.” but I need not toss any coin because I
know. The truth is, I have known for quite sometime. I know what I want, it is
just that I am scared if what I want is what is right for me. The truth is,
people know what they want, it is just the fear of rejection, failure, and loss
of passion that makes them say “ I don’t know”, because with “I don’t know”
everything is safe, because with “I don’t know”, no one really knows but yourself,
because with “I don’t know” the uncertainty masks the reality.
Behind every “I don’t know” is
“I know but I am just scared” or “ I know but it will never happen” or
maybe “ I know but this is not right for me” but the truth is, how will anyone really
know if every truth had to hide behind the three words, because sometimes it is
what it is and we settle for “I don’t know” because there is no exact
explanation for what we feel, because not even ourselves can explain what we
feel.
But the truth is, I have been waiting for the day that I get to
say “ I know” because it has always been there, just never spoken, because I
want to lay it all down, be fearless for once and take the risk…because I know,
and I have known for quite some time.
Because the “what ifs” and the “should haves” have been eating my brain because
I had to hide the “I know”s with “ I don’t know” s, because the truth is I
never really stepped out of my comfort zone and I do not want to regret things
in the end and I get tired of waiting. I get tired of waiting for something or
someone to really push me to say “I know”
because I have always known, I was just
not brave enough to say it.
I need not toss a coin nor do I need that moment to know what I am
hoping for…because I already know, and I have known for quite some time.
