Agliophobia
“Know this it’s a universal truth, that people let you down”
Pain is nothing new to human beings. In fact, it is something felt
every single day. May it be from accidentally touching something pointy, being
scratched by some rough surface, or being pinched by a friend who is always in
“gigil” mode whenever he or she sees something funny, but what about the pain
the brings about fear, the pain that can be too much to handle that eventually
it brings about agliophobia?
Agliophobia is known to be the fear of pain, although it comes
natural for some people to actually have the said phobia, I believe that there
is some kind of truth behind some other fears. It may be due to past
experiences or maybe a traumatic experience that brought about the fear, but I
think one of the most painful things that human can ever experience is when
other people let you down. Most especially when it happens way to often, or
maybe it happened once but it was such a big hit that eventually, whatever
comes next, comes hand in hand with fear.
Truth is, I am afraid of being let down. I am afraid of the
slightest possibility that once I stop smiling, people will eventually leave,
that maybe they like the crazy side of me, but what about the sensitive me?
What about the part of me that tries so hard to hide in the shadows, just cause
I am afraid that I might be too much to handle for some? I am afraid that maybe
there are those that will eventually get tired of me. But I know, that I am not
the only one out there. Truth is we are all afraid. Maybe some are more afraid
than the others, but in the end, we all have something we are afraid of.
We are afraid of opening ourselves to other people, because the
truth is not everyone cares. A lot are curious, but only some really care. We’re
afraid that once they discover the flaws, they will turn their backs on us,
because apparently, we are not as perfect as we may seem. We are afraid that
our failure may be too much for them to handle, and not only our failures, but
maybe ourselves alone may be too much to handle. We are afraid, that once our
doors open to them, we will have a hard time once they leave it. Because once a
person becomes a part of your system, it will be hard to rearrange everything
once they decide that their time in your space is enough already.
We are afraid that we will never be enough, that eventually people
will look for more, and maybe they are looking for something you cannot give.
You know how celebrities lose their fame in a minute, we’re afraid that like
those celebrities, our “time” will eventually pass, and sooner or later we will
have to be replaced.
We are afraid, because the truth is forever happens only to those
who are considered to be exceptions to the rule, and that life is a cycle,
wherein people will eventually leave, and no matter how hard we try to avoid
goodbye’s, they will eventually happen.
We become so afraid of so many things, that we eventually build walls, walls too high that it will take someone with super powers or Rapunzel’s hair for someone to actually climb over or break them. We put our defenses up, because maybe we are better off that way. We become so scared, that eventually we avoid taking risks, stay in the safe zone, just to avoid the pain.