“Cause when you’re 19.. 19tindihan mo na ang mga bagay-bagay”

People say age is just a number. It is only a number that signifies a person’s existence here on earth, but more than that, age comes with a list of responsibilities, experiences, memories and lessons. For me, turning 19 does not only signify another year of my life, but 19 was more of a wake up call, that sooner or later I am about to end the teenage phase of my life, that being 19 meant treasuring the people who chose to stay beyond my 18 years of living, that it meant being open to other possibilities and not letting my inhibitions stop me from experiencing greater things. 19 is just a number… but when  you turn 19 you realize that …

There are people who we can’t live without but we have to let go…

That people come and go in our lives and sometimes the ones whom we thought we’re biggest blessings of our lives, may turn out to be some temporary source of happiness that was not meant to stay. Sometimes no matter how hard we hold on to people and to the memories that are incorporated with them,  we have to let go. We let go maybe because this time we’re giving ourselves the chance to grow without them, that there are people who contain us a in box when in fact, we are all capable of flying. Sometimes we let go because maybe, just maybe we are better of without them. Lastly, sometimes we let go because we are giving them the chance to be happy and if that meant not being with us, then we simply give what they are asking for, even if that meant letting go of our very own wants and needs.

There are people, on the other hand, who might surprise you along the way…

Contrary to the people whom we have to let go, there are others who came unexpectedly, ones who were not exactly part of the plan but would like to stay without us forcing them to. These are the people whom I call  “ordinary miracles” . Ordinary miracles whom we have possibly ignored or maybe took for granted in the past, who turned out to be the ones who really loved us the most. There are also ordinary miracles who seemed way out of one’s world, someone who is not even part of one’s past, but would love to be part of one’s future. These are the people whom we should treasure, the ones who might actually stay for good.

Things do not always go the way you planned them to be…

Sometimes no matter how hard you fight for something or no matter how hardworking we may be towards something, we have to accept that things do not always go our way, that there are things that we do not want to happen but we have to accept. No matter how cliché the line “ God has a plan for us” may be, maybe it is also the line that best explains things that greater things are indeed, in store for us that is why the ones that we wanted before were not the ones that we attained. Things may have been or may still be confusing now for most of us, but maybe because someone, or something along the way will enlighten us that “ hey you’re not getting what you want right now, because you deserve something better in the future.”

There are things that you have to risk in order to attain better things…

I have always been the type of person who made sure that before I enter or try something, I am already sure of the outcome., but then for the past 18 years of my life, I realized that there are things that are we are not sure of but we have to try, that taking chances is not always bad. Maybe some things will remain unexplained, moreover maybe some things will not go the way people planned…but no one really knows and how would people know if they never tried? Although honestly speaking, I am still afraid, afraid that maybe something or someone comes along the way and suddenly changes my plan, I learned that I should be open to all these changes because change is not bad and change can be a road towards something bigger…something better in store for me.

They say when you’re 19… dapat 19tindihan na ang mga bagay-bagay, and maybe these are just some of the things that I learned from the past years but I know that I am still on my way to learning and experiencing new stuff, that I still do not understand everything, moreover will I be able explain or comprehend the things that are about to happen, but all I know is that sometimes we accept…we let go..,we move on and we try. We try to make things happen and moreover, we try to be bigger persons than we were.