A blockmate of mine and I were about to receive our third
long test for Bio Lec when she said “Mendi pag yan ok na naman, ibig sabihin
meant to be ka na talaga dito” and as I received my score which was
considerably better than what I expected, I was given the sign that maybe I am
actually meant for this.
Looking back at around June of 2012, I had all my doubts and
intuitions with regards to the university and course that I will be a part of.
I was so unsure, scared and somewhat disheartened to start the race of my
supposedly “pre-med” life. I was pretty sure that once this year ends, I will
find a way to shift, if not to another school, maybe to another course but then,
the academic year started and things have changed.
The start of the year was pretty rough, so to speak. I was
faced with subjects that I thought were beyond my reach, with people that I
barely knew and with professors that barely passed the students who were under
them, even the most terror ones as they said. But somehow somewhere, I found a
way to compromise. I learned to use these negativities as tools for me to cope
up with college. I had to sacrifice tons of things like normal weekday
afterschool hangouts and internet time in order for me to focus on such
subjects. I learned to open myself to all the differences of the people around
me and I learned to push myself to study even harder when professors are said
to be “terror” and in the end, I did realize that it is not as bad as I thought
of…that lately my life as a Biology student is actually pretty good. Despite the
numerous sleepless nights, heavy-duty eyebags and missed gimmicks, at the end
of the day, I found myself happy. I was in a totally new world from what I was
used to and I am ready to explore this world. Although there are still days
wherein I would get jealous with the fact that some of my friends get to hang
out on a normal weekday basis, and I only had weekends and holidays with them…I
saw myself balancing the situation. At some point, I realized that maybe I was
actually destined for this, that God had His own ways of putting me in a place
wherein I could actually really nurture my being.
Back in June of 2012, I had a hundred reasons for me to
shift and change the course of path in my college life, but upon finishing
first semester, I had a thousand reasons to stay and continue with this journey.
I learned to love the intense amount of scientific words to memorize, the
numerous glass slides that I had to picture in my mind, the never-ending arguments
of philosophy, and even the voices of professors that scare the hell out of me especially
on Tuesdays and Thursdays…most of all, I learned that being open to all the
differences would actually lead me to meeting some of the best people I have
ever met in my life yet and “…suddenly I see, this is what I want to be”
